House Hunt Continues...

...with another offer on another home...or property, I should say, as it is not a home until it is mine. This one is in Allen Park...3 bed, 2 bath, nice brick ranch....and so we shall see if it is meant to be...it will be mine. Now, just a waiting game to see if the bank accepts my offer...but I have a better outlook this time because I know that if they don't accept it there is something better waiting for me and my family. That's a fact.

I am sick...Jake is sick...he's been sick for going on a week...it was inevitable that I would contract his germs as my little batman still sleeps with his little head on my shoulder, snuggled up with me every night. Thank God for king sized beds!!! I am drained and feeling tired, can't breathe, my head feels like it's about to explode. So this is going to be short...as I give thanks for our quick recovery from the autumn viruses and look forward to breathing normally soon! Into the shower for another day of work...at least I am stalled from viewing more houses until I hear from that bank....

And I can't close without saying good luck to my friend, Jose....he has a big day tomorrow. It will be a successful day for him and a new door open for new opportunities. He deserves that...and he will get it...no doubt in my mind.

Off to work...let it speed by quickly so that I can relax a bit and try to feel better...

Might be tougher to break them than I thought!!

Okay, so the bank isn't budging...what is up with that??? Don't they know that nobody else wants to buy their crappy house anyway? Jeez...well, it's okay....because we are going to find the perfect house, Jose promised me...and I don't think he would break his promise! Not to batgirl! And he knows about my can-o-whoopass, too...anyway, guess they will be sitting on that house for a while. And I still think that they will realize their mistake and call back with a better offer for me!! We shall see...no matter what, La Vida es Dulce...............si senor!!!

A New Day

So this morning I woke up full of energy! Amazing...I can see myself in that house. I am confident that the bank will come back with a counter offer that is within my range and I will make it happen! I don't know why I am so stuck on this house...maybe it's the street name Kennebec resembling my dad's name, Kenneth. I never thought I would want a house without a basement but something is drawing me to this house in spite of its flaws. I am always searching for 'signs' to the things that occur in my life. And when it comes down to it, it's got to be the law of attraction...simple as that. There is a reason for everything. I do believe that. Maybe I don't always understand what those reasons are...but that is what life is all about...learning, living, growing. Truly amazing, God's splendor. I am so blessed and so thankful for all the gifts in my life. And regardless of whether I am right or wrong with this particular house, it doesn't matter, because all things shall come together for me and my kids and we will be in the home that is meant for us...

I have finally made an appointment for my son with the Muscular Dystrophy Association. Two weeks from today. I know that God doesn't give us anything we cannot handle, so I am trying to focus on that and not worry. I am the luckiest mommy in the world to have been blessed with my little Jakey. And we have my Dad looking over us as well. I believe that. I feel his presence still in my life. He is behind so many of my decisions. I miss him so much but I still feel him and his strength.

And into the shower I go....ready for a new day and grateful for all that God has brought to me today. La vida es dulce!!!

The Sun is Rising...

The sun is coming up and it sure is beautiful. Woke up full of energy this morning and a list a mile long of things to accomplish today.

I had a dream last night that I was running and running...I don't know from what or to what. But it was exhilarating. I was on a beach, much like this picture from my Florida vacation. The ocean was peacefully breaking into the shore. And all I could do was run. It wasn't out of fear, like I was trying to get away from something...can't even explain it...but anyway, I feel like I am back to myself. I had a couple rough days...it happens. I find myself wishing for things to be different. I dwell on memories and hopes when really I just have to remember that in spite of it all, life is still beautiful. Thanks for that, Jose...

A pesar de todo que linda es la vida! I have to embed that in my brain.

I am ready to start my day...a beautiful day, for certain. I will accomplish all that I set out to accomplish today. I will get my chores done and enjoy all that the day has to offer.......and continue packing up boxes preparing for the move that is sure to happen soon!

Getting Back to Gratitude...

So I slipped up yesterday...got to feeling sorry for myself and missing George and look where it got me....a mile long post that totally avoided the subject of Gratitude. But I am thankful for him. No matter what happens, my life is better from having met him and from realizing that I am able to allow myself to love again. And hurt again. Because that 'Bohr Block' gets to be a pain in the ass sometimes. Reminds me of Trace Adkins' song "I Wanna Feel Somethin" ....life is not as amazing when you shut off your emotions. It may be safer, but not near as fulfilling. So I will keep doing what I do best...think positive and hold onto my dreams. I am just a happy girl who sometimes gets sad. And at those times, for me it is best to get it out in writing...a letting go of sorts....like relieving the pressure in an over-filled tire. Just a little at a time. Over-inflated tires make for a bumpy ride, you know? Gotta ease up the load sometimes.

And so today I am grateful again for Jose...he is ditching me for a week but I predict that no suitable housing will come on the market next week anyway, because the law of attraction will be aware that I don't have access to the best realtor downriver during that time....and the only thing I see happening is that the bank sends over a fax to his office saying they would ABSOLUTELY LOVE to sell me that house on Kennebec for the price that I offered! And if that's the case, well, hell, his partner can fax him the stuff to sign and we can get the show on the road. And I will be whistling dixie while packing up boxes. Okay okay...so we shall see...

I am grateful for my beautiful daughter....she got her hair chopped off. And it took me a bit to get used to it, but she is beautiful no matter what hairstyle she has. I have never seen her with short hair since she was a baby....she wears it well....beautiful...amazing....eyes that would knock your socks off...she is my baby girl.

I am grateful for my amazing little boy. He was so strong and brave at the doctor's yesterday. Took his shots like such a big boy! I love him so much and can't imagine my life without him. He is my little Batman....

And so today...the house hunt continues...off to drive by some and see if they are worth looking inside. And spend the day cleaning and packing because that new house is right around the corner.....I won't be cooped up in this flat much longer...the Law of Attraction will make certain that I'm not!!