Getting Back to Gratitude...

So I slipped up yesterday...got to feeling sorry for myself and missing George and look where it got me....a mile long post that totally avoided the subject of Gratitude. But I am thankful for him. No matter what happens, my life is better from having met him and from realizing that I am able to allow myself to love again. And hurt again. Because that 'Bohr Block' gets to be a pain in the ass sometimes. Reminds me of Trace Adkins' song "I Wanna Feel Somethin" ....life is not as amazing when you shut off your emotions. It may be safer, but not near as fulfilling. So I will keep doing what I do best...think positive and hold onto my dreams. I am just a happy girl who sometimes gets sad. And at those times, for me it is best to get it out in writing...a letting go of sorts....like relieving the pressure in an over-filled tire. Just a little at a time. Over-inflated tires make for a bumpy ride, you know? Gotta ease up the load sometimes.

And so today I am grateful again for Jose...he is ditching me for a week but I predict that no suitable housing will come on the market next week anyway, because the law of attraction will be aware that I don't have access to the best realtor downriver during that time....and the only thing I see happening is that the bank sends over a fax to his office saying they would ABSOLUTELY LOVE to sell me that house on Kennebec for the price that I offered! And if that's the case, well, hell, his partner can fax him the stuff to sign and we can get the show on the road. And I will be whistling dixie while packing up boxes. Okay okay...so we shall see...

I am grateful for my beautiful daughter....she got her hair chopped off. And it took me a bit to get used to it, but she is beautiful no matter what hairstyle she has. I have never seen her with short hair since she was a baby....she wears it well....beautiful...amazing....eyes that would knock your socks off...she is my baby girl.

I am grateful for my amazing little boy. He was so strong and brave at the doctor's yesterday. Took his shots like such a big boy! I love him so much and can't imagine my life without him. He is my little Batman....

And so today...the house hunt continues...off to drive by some and see if they are worth looking inside. And spend the day cleaning and packing because that new house is right around the corner.....I won't be cooped up in this flat much longer...the Law of Attraction will make certain that I'm not!!